Birthday Sadness

The first time in my life I felt so alone was my 26th birthday.

I used to spend my birthday, in fact, from the eve of my birthday with my family. Yet, now, I am too far to be with them physically. I am now sitting on my office chair and tip tapping on my laptop.

I just thank the Lord for another healthy year, I wanted to focus on all positive areas of my life, but this thing going on for the rest of the day makes me feel so sick. so unfocused. Today isn't extra ordinary, my birthday is just like the days of the past. unfocused, sad, unhopeful. It is the irony of life after all. I guess, what is important is that, I gained a year, more wise and more smart.

It's just that, though God just sent me a message this morning, he knows how I wanted to spend my day giving glory to him. just like how I dreamed of it.

It's just birthday sadness,... it will come to pass anyway..

*but still, i thank the Lord for one great year.. and a wonderful family as part of the package.